Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile AR!ELLE (: CHIJ toapayoh. 1/2 2020! <3 12 going on 13 this year., 21/1197 hotmail/facebook/tumblr I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard Tagboard. Darlinks Meryl. Isabelle Lauren. Esabelle. Archives October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 December 2009 January 2010 Applause. ©Glamouresque.	Friday, May 29, 2009 i'm currently online talking to ALINA & this is how our conversation is going, Arielle says: wow.you're still online? Alina says: yea Alina says: haha Arielle says: wow.you amaze me. Arielle says: i admire you so much. Arielle says: i'm not a les tho Alina says: lol. haha Alina says: why Alina says: as in why do you even admire me Arielle says: i dunno,you seem like a role model for i have know idea what Alina says: and why do i amaze you Alina says: o Alina says: i'm a horrible person! Arielle says: in a good way lah Arielle says: no Arielle says: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Alina says: yesh. Arielle says: i forgot to add the exclamation marks Alina says: and gosh Alina says: there's this fly Alina says: swimming in my apple juice. Arielle says: LOL. Alina says: gosh. Alina says: gross. Arielle says: hahahha Arielle says: you are so funny Alina says: i haven't even drank it Alina says: gosh Alina says: haha Alina says: nah. Alina says: boring Arielle says: what's boring? Alina says: ew. i hope the fly didn't poop or peeped inside. Alina says: >< Alina says: i mean, i'm a boring person Arielle says: LOL.&no way Arielle says: i mean how can you being boring be possible Arielle says: i'm the boring ass. Alina says: nah. Alina says: i'm really boring Alina says: i'm also extremely weird and evil Arielle says: WEIRD? not really.EVIL? haha. Arielle says: ********{sensored} likes evil Alina says: er. Alina says: okay... Alina says: (anti-******** here) Alina says: no offence. Arielle says: she calls herself an ******************* or what shit Arielle says: hey me too. Alina says: that's pretty contradicting? Alina says: hi-five. Arielle says: hi-everywhere man. Alina says: LOL. Alina says: okay. ^ ^ Arielle says: crappy Arielle says: i meant me Alina says: gosh, i'm so boring , Alina says: and no. Alina says: you aren't crappy. Alina says: comeon' Arielle says: & no yourself Alina says: have higher self-esteem manz. Arielle says: okay i'll shut,okay lah Arielle says: i SO don't talk crap Alina says: ._. Arielle says: it's all gold & precious information Alina says: at least make it sound more real! gosh! that's absolutely total sarcarsm! Arielle says: & usable knowledge too. Alina says: ha Alina says: you aren't crappy and stuff kay. Arielle says: everybody bows down to me because of my UNCRAPPINESS.yeah so yeah. Arielle says: have the tours ended yet Arielle says: the demi & david ones Alina says: ._. Arielle says: i know. Alina says: (sarcastic) Arielle says: i'm totally backdated Alina says: me too. Alina says: sorry Alina says: i dont know. Alina says: i'm more outdated. Alina says: anyway do you read david's twitter. Arielle says: he's on TWITTER??? Alina says: yep. Alina says: Arielle says: serious? Alina says: twitter.com/davidarcie Alina says: archie* Arielle says: i have to join Alina says: Alina says: yep. Arielle says: omg. Alina says: ^^ Arielle says: hold on a sec please. Alina says: haha alrighty. SENSORING STUFF ARE FOR SAFETY REASONS. HI peeps,it's your biggest nightmare,making life hell for the all of you.it's friday today,& i had one of the greatest times of my life yesterday with Arielle.after our PTMs,we went to our mum's office(they work in the same office)&fooled around like idiots.our first attempt to take a pic: accidentally banged our heads together.it was so damn funny.we laughed like there was no tomorrow.fourth attempt:accidentally switched the camera off,thinking it was gonna snap a shot.after sixth attempt:Arielle took my bubble tea thinking it was hers until she drank it,she was like oops *hahahaha* i was watching her the whole time & i was like,WHAT THE HELL IS SHE DOING??? i havent downloaded the pics yet because the bloody camera is out of batt so when it's charged,i'll post the pics(: conclusion:made a hell lot of noise & did not realise that someone's office was beside our room.&we made the meeting room look like WORLD WAR II was held there. TODAY, my mum & i brought me out to shop.i bought 2 Everlast Tees&1 NewUrbanMale(David&Goliath)Tee.i had a bad headache & stomachache in the morning,that's why I didnt go to school for the Inter-House Games.so going out cheered me up.i had tuition later,it was okay,i kept getting high on the inside but nothing on the outside.i rock at hiding my feelings(:oh yeah&i just discovered i'm rankedthe sweetest person on Facebook,thanks SO MUCH,heehee.it made my day. -'ve wriiten what i've written,so accept that fact &move on with your life, Wednesday, May 20, 2009 took this quiz on Facebook, 01. Who was your last text from? Arielle. 02. Where was your default picture taken? i don't have one. 03. Your relationship status? Single. :) 04. Have you ever lost a close friend? Yeah.. 05. What is your current mood? Pissed . 06. How many siblings do you have? 1 07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names? Brendan. 08. Where do you wish you were right now? Heaven. 09. Have a crazy side? I'm mentally unstable, 10. Ever had a near death experience? Nopes, 11. Something you do a lot? Sleep. 12. Angry at anyone? Fucking angry. 13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like? Because I don't like anyone. 14. When was the last time you cried? idk. 15. Is there anyone you would do anything for? Yeah. 16. What you think about when you are falling asleep? How i love monsters&gummy bears 17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My mum. 18. What is your favorite song? Currently no favourite.. 19. What are you doing right now? Breathing. 20. Who do you trust right now? Nobody. 21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? London. 22. Have you kissed someone in the past week? No 23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you? Joelle Chee. 24. Describe your life in one word? Normally Plain. 25. Who are you thinking of right now? Nobody. 26. What should you be doing right now? Watching American Idol&talking to Lauren over the phone 27. What are you listening to? How You Love Me Now-Hey Monday 28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug? Idk lei. 29. Who was the last person who yelled at you? My Ass of A Bro. 30. Do you act differently around the person you like? No. I don't even like anyone. 31. What is your natural hair color? Brownish-black. 32. Who was the last person to make you laugh? Alina Goh. 33. Who was the last person to make you sad? I'm a fucking happy person :) 34. What do you hear? Sound Energy coming from the TV. 35. Is your hair curly or straight? Curly 36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before? No. 37. Do you have a best friend? Yes,loads in fact. 38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days? No. 39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer? Yups. 40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? When I was young. 41. Are you happy with life right now? Uh-huh. I already mention I'm a happy potato. 42. Are you currently jealous? No,why would I be? 43. What jewelry are you currently wearing? I Hate jewelry. 44. What were you doing on friday night? Using the com. 45. Have you ever had your heart broken? Yeah. 46. Have you ever broken someone's heart? Yeah. 47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now? No. 48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for? I can't remember every freakin visit i make to the doctor. 49. How late did you stay up last night and why? 11p.m.,it's a school day the next day. 50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? No. REACTIONS TO THESE; WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT? I don't know? I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU. Crazy. LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY! YOU'LL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME. Crazy. COME ON. SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO! Crazy. PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO! In Your Dreams. I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU. Crazy WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY? How the hell am I supposed to know? I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME? I'm not a big fan, YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT? Crazy. I THINK I'M FALLING FOR YOU.. Crazy I CAN'T SMILE WITHOUT YOU. Crazy THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST AREN'T HIM/HER. THANK YOU! WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER? Whatever. CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE? Crazy. MAY I ESCORT YOU? what the hell do you mean ? DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM/HER TIL NOW? Huh? YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED Yeah,so? WHEN WILL I GET UR SWEET EYES? Crazy. WEE. today's the day that won the BEST DAY OF THE MONTH AWARD on my calender.in school,Jashlyn "bullied" me but in a brotherly way by stuffing Shaoqing's stuffed toy dog in my face[but gently] i complained to Caitlin because as a mother,she SHOULD be scolding her child for bullying her youngest & most loved one.so she told Jashlyn to say SORRY.but JASHLYN SAID:but that's what older brothers do,bully their sisters wif a big smile on her face to win Ma over.i was like WHAT THE HELL,don't fall for it Ma.so Ma told Jashlyn to say sorry but not really meaning it,so Jashlyn said,sorry,but i don't mean it,then grinned.then i said,THIS MEANS WAR!!! Queenie came along to my table & put hand sanitiser on Jashlyn's arm.i was like:MUAHAHAHAJashlyn was like,IS THIS PART OF YOUR REVENGE?then i was like no.she was like, i have skin allergies.so i took the whole bottle of hand sanitiser & squeezed out all its' contents onto Jashlyn's arm.revenge is SWEET(: so she tried to wipe it on me but i did the puppy-dog pout & it OBVIOUSLY worked on her. then Arielle & I started cutting out Fluffer's friends[grey & green versions] & Jashlyn was like,i want one & i was like *stuck out tongue* then she was like *stuck out tongue*,then Jashlyn & I started disturbing each other again,then Ma told us to stop it,then i was like,*stuck out tongue at Jashlyn*,then Ma slapped me then i was like, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU,WOMAN! then she laughed,then Jashlyn stuck her tongue at me the Ma said,TO BE FAIR, then she slapped Jashlyn as well,then i was like,HAHA.in your face,BROTHER! After reccess, we went up[duh] Jashlyn started tickling/poking me & i started tickling/poking her back & we were like THIS MEANS WAR! again it was so fun,LOL. sowe went for assembly,Mrs Bheem talked about Founders' Day.& she was like,you'd better listen because there will be a quiz & how do i pick people,p6s?& we were like,class & registered number.it's common knowledge how Mrs Bheem calls students to the stage to answer her questions.so Arielle & i took down the notes as she went through the slides[actually she was drawing,but she took some notes down too] then Mrs Bheem was like,okay,i'll end here,i'll just run through the slides one more time,but quickly.i was like,you know our class has the worst reputation for behaviour in the whole of p6,so she will definitely call us,& she will definitely call 5,because it's the first number that could possibly pop up in anyone's head,& that's obviously me,& arielle was like 2,4,she will call ME.then Mrs Bheem was like,6 DAISY! & all the p6s were like WOAH! registered number,,,5!!!!& the whole class was like WOAH! except for me because i was cursing myself,consistently saying shit in my mind.arielle was like,good luck,you can do it Lowly[f.y.i.my nickname in class,LOWLY THE WORM & don't ask me why.Bridget gave me that nickname in p4 & i've been called Lowly(in a good way)by everybody in my class)] then as i walked down the row,Phoebe was like,GOOD LUCK! & Bri was like, GOOD LUCK! so the other chosen people from the rest of the levels went as well.the p2 person started first & this was what i went through when she finally reached me[p.s. my belt was so low i kept trying to pull it up to my waist length,i didnt want to go near those hooks,theyre too high]: Mrs Bheem:Now,P6!!! Entire P6 level:*screams WOO & cheers hysterically* Arielle,Queenie&Rachel:"GO ARIELLE!" Mrs Bheem:Name? Me:-silence- Mrs Bheem:Name? Me:Arielle Mrs Bheem:Arielle.hmmm, Mrs Bheem:Arielle seems very nervous Some people:*laughs* Me:*smiles* Mrs Bheem:Arielle,what was the priests' motto? Me:Charitas Mrs Bheem:Which means, Me:Charity Mrs Bheem:CORRECT!p6s get 20 points!(the most) Entire p6 level:*screams WOO & cheers hysterically* After that,she gave me a ladybird shaped bookmark.WEE.so i ran back.when i passed Mrs Geetha she smiled at me & said Good job or Well Done,i seriously can't remember. Everybody wanted to see it,i had no reason why.Arielle was like, Good Job,Lowly*smiles at me* i was like,did i hear you people screaming my name & they were like,YEAH.it was so touching.i wanted to cry.but i don't really cry so,i felt it in the heart(: -i've wriiten what i've written,so accept that fact &move on with your life, Friday, May 15, 2009 YOU BELONG WITH ME,Taylor Swift (sorry,i know the screen's tiny) i love this song.it rocks.ENJOY.anyways,our math paper is finally over.WEE.everybody is practically screaming their asses off right now.or maybe they already have but right now,i don't give a shit.SO my mum told me i didnt have to go for tuition,i felt like screaming hysterically&crying inside at the same time but she already informed my teacher,that's why i'm blogging.duh, i was supposed to go to Arielle's house today to take loads of pics cause we're making a badge,but my mum didn't allow me cause she wanted to bring me somewhere to go SHOPPING.but she wouldnt go anywhere near Orchard so,i said no way.she said she'll bring me another time.it's just the jams&all but i've gotten over it(: &THE GREATEST NEWS IN HISTORY(okay,i guess i'm exaggerating but WHO CARES) i have gotten my p.c.shirt,so i dont have to wear the one with the collar anymore because I PASSED MY TEST.i was positive i was going to fail.i can't hit that far&i dont know anything about the rules of golf but i guess it was just luck,but,just punch me now, monsterslovegummys.&this,is a fact. Friday, May 8, 2009 urm,hi(: i feel really depressed at the moment&i just want to get sucked up into a BLACK HOLE.don't ask me why.i won't tell you anything.only arielle knows.don't ask her.she won't tell you.i'll think back to the happy times... i cant remember anything right about now.my mind has gone BLANK.i just want to get back to my normal life.i will blog next week.i cant think,i refuse to.so see you&sorry for making you waste your time reading this cartload of shit.i promise i'll do my best to get over it&be back to my normal self again so peace out&rock on(: CIAO~ Saturday, May 2, 2009 hello people of THE WORLD.i just love saying that.anyways ive started to love soccer just recently & i'm currently supporting: THAT'S RIGHT PEOPLE.Manchester United.i dunno,they just rock compared to the others,what i personally think.i won't say the cons about the other teams in case this gets on the press & the managers of Liverpool,Arsenal,Everton,Portsmouth,Chelsea& all come after me so i've zipped my mouth about the subject.oh yeah,bet you're wondering why i'm online.i had to pay for doing so:20 pages of math & reading the whole book on ENERGY nearly killed me.so yeah.i really have no idea what to say right now so just keep on loving me &chow
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay